I'm beginning to see the light again

It's been rough to say the least.  The past couple of weeks have been emotionally draining, but I'm finally beginning to see the light again.  I'm starting to feel like myself again and feel like this break was essential. 


Two days after I found out that IVF #1 didn't work, we met with Dr. Chantilis.  I did not want to go, but Josh was insistant that we try to understand what went wrong.  At that point I was feeling not only extremely sad, but also extremely angry.  Angry at God, my body, Dr. C, my lucky sisters and friends - basically everyone and everything. 


When Dr. C walked in, he was as disappointed as we were.  He said that he was "shocked" that it didn't work and for a number of reasons.  He went over each and every step of the process with us - really took his time.  In the end he told us to keep trying and that "we would eventually" get pregnant. 

Here's to hope...